Late Night Friday Weekly Review (With Awesome Theme Music Included).

Late Night Friday Weekly Review (With Awesome Theme Music Included).

I have to keep reminding myself that Google+ is going away soon and I should be focusing more on posting things in a different area since what I’m posting there is getting chucked to the curb in a few weeks. Most of the people I’ve connected with have already set sail to better destinations, while others are milking it for all it’s worth.

I also have to keep reminding myself that nothing is permanent and anything can be taken away without too much of a reason and that I should be happy with what remains. Which means, while I’m a little cold on the whole searching for a Facebook alternative thing, I should be spending more time here.

Not that I haven’t, oh no no no no… I’ve been here behind the scenes tapping away like crazy. I’ve been diligent over the course of a month crafting a short story. There’s a motivation behind it which I’ll explain in a later post. I’ll probably need to give a preface to it to not make it any longer than it already is. (It’s a short story that I’ll post here, and it’s already northwards of 5000 words. Editing will be ensuing before I hit Publish. Which will be a first for me. I know, right?)

For far too long, I’ve gotten fat on the automation of social media. Sharing information and sharing pics in a point-and-click world, floating on a little puffy cloud of convenience where everything is done for you, and it’s been effing great. But ever since the announcement, I can’t help but get the feeling that the party’s over and they’re turning on the lights. “Okay everyone, last call,” the raspy, one-eyed bartender would yell. “Facebook’ll take all y’all’s information and you’ll like it too because it’s easier than starting over somewhere else. Speaking of somewhere else, you don’t have to go home, but you can’t stay here. Yer all gonna start paying for all the shit you put online tomorrow. Let’s go, people!”

There’s a new landscape coming and I don’t think many of us are ready to accept it yet. I’m beginning to think that the days of free social media are at an end and everyone is looking to monetize. I am no different.

Long story short, what all this means is that I’ll be spending a lot more time on here. I might not show up on a regular basis, but I’ll always be working on something. I just have to learn to share. Maybe start conversations. (The narrator laughs so loud, he wakes up everyone in the house.)

Yay! I Did A Thing!

Since January, I’ve been tinkering with a short story whenever I can find the time. If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ll know that I’m notorious at starting things, not finishing them, and starting something else, and not finishing that either. Basically, my world is a Whitman’s Sampler filled with nibbled chocolate story ideas because it always looks good on the outside.

Current blurb from current project

But as I post this, I am this close (holds up thumb and forefinger) to finishing a short story. My first one. No, I’m serious this time you guys. I am nearly at the end of it, and edits are soon to follow later. Afterward, I’ll post it here along with a shiny Photoshopped cover.

It’s nothing spectacular. Not yet, anyway, and probably will never be, but it’s a thing, and I’m going to finish it. Yay! Go me!

My Boy Is Growing Up!

It’s been about a year, maybe longer, since my son’s mother and I started looking for a suitable preschool for him to go to. Personally, I find that some of the preschools in our area aren’t that good. Some are corrupt the rest are hemorrhaging money or feeling the effects of government cutbacks. Add on top of this my son’s autism, and the list of possibilities shrinks.

Alex, Age 4

For about a year, maybe longer, we’ve been on a list to get him into the Florida Autism Center. It’s a school (at least up until this year it was) that focuses on helping children on spectrum to move on to higher education. We went through the gauntlet of meet and greets, evaluations, paperwork, and waiting for insurance to kick in until finally, we get the phone call last week. “We hope your son can join us on Monday.”

It’s been about a week, and he’s loving it. I’ve been saying for a long time that the biggest thing he needs right now is social interaction with other children. The experience will broaden his mind and make him less isolated. It’s been about a week, and every night, he can’t wait to go back. He loves it. Daddy loves that he loves it. Daddy knows that his son needs this. Daddy has to get used to a quiet house after four-plus years of catering to his every need. Daddy’s heart is a little bruised at the moment.

Oh, Like Your Theme Music Is Any Better.

So, this story that I’m putting the finishing touches on takes place in a piano bar, and as inspiration, my Spotify has been stuck to Jazz channels. Everything from new and old. I’m giving something for my ears to do while I work out character arcs.

It helps. To be honest, I’ve never been one to utilize music while writing… well… anything. My mind wanders enough. I don’t need pleasant music hanging outside my window asking if it can come out to play, or a favorite poking me to sing along at the top of my lungs as if I’m in the shower.

Lately, my writing habits have been pushing me to later in the evening, so a little something to keep my eyes open isn’t uncalled for. I prefer silence, but lately Classical, Jazz, and Lo-Fi Hip Hop have been the cup of tea needed to keep me going until the wee hours.

That being said, silence will always be my first choice when complete concentration is needed. Then I heard this…

This. This will be the music, this will be the arrangement I hear when editing my first draft.

This will also be my theme music when I

  • fold the laundry
  • take out the trash
  • take out the kitty litter
  • stay alive for 5 minutes in Fortnite
  • finish F2L on my cube in sub 10… minutes.

Anyway, that’s my week in review. I need to make this a regular habit. I need to write down the little things, the big things, the things taking up too much of my free time. This blog was made for writin’, so that’s just what I’ll do.

Thank you for reading.


“In That Awkward Position Between Zero and One…”

Today is January 2nd. That means yesterday was officially the end of 2018; the longest decade ever packed into twelve months. That also means tomorrow will be January 3rd; my birthday.

I’m not looking forward to it.

I suppose in some small way, I am. Tomorrow, I am looking forward to the end of the government shutdown and to see Pelosi start cracking skulls. Considering for a moment that the last 24 months it’s been nothing but an endless clown show with an endless supply of clowns, it’s the best birthday present I have received in recent memory.

But, that’s not what I wanted to write about this evening.

Since it’s that time of the season again, it might be appropriate to share New Year’s Resolutions and make a nice listicle out of my hastily thought out decisions to be brushed aside and ignored for the rest of the year.

Tempting, very tempting, but I don’t think my heart is in it this year to offer up some dubious statements in order to justify the time it takes to craft a blog post. “I will try to build a novel before the end of summer. I will try to get more serious about my freelancing endeavors.” These are all lofty and oh-so-pretty, but they are also just shy of being unrealistic. I’ve been trying to get my shit together for years, and every year, it’s time to hit that reset button.

In just a few hours, I will be within spitting distance of fifty years old. This fact has been set in bold and underlined every time I open up my Scrivener and count how many unfinished projects I have which draws focus to how I exist day after day, which is scattered and lacking any purpose at best. The last thing I want to do right now, as I lean into another trip around the sun, is to say I’m going to do something, and then forget about it a few weeks later. This is what I do, I’m old enough to recognize and admit it.

So with that in mind, I think this year I’ll drop the bar just a little bit lower than I used to. Instead of saying, “This is definitely the year I’m gonna get published,” I think this time I’ll be satisfied if I can just finish something. A short story. A first draft. A shopping list. Anything.

Instead of saying, “This is the year I’m going to get serious about freelancing,” actually getting up and doing something about it. Late last year, I set up an account with Upwork. Nothing ever came out of it because I intentionally left parts blank like my work history and education. All of which is ancient history by this point. I’ve been a stay-at-home daddy for a little over five years now. Nobody is going to be interested in my high school education. Nobody is going to wonder why there’s been a huge gap in my employment history. I thought focusing on the here and now was more important than divulging experience that has nothing to do with what I’m writing for.

Turns out I was wrong. They wanted all that information. I was at a moment when I accidentally got my hopes up and thought that there would be some forgiving soul at the other end and notice that I was overeducated and underemployed. But no. Nothing happened, and as a result, my account still sits there with a bunch of holes in it like an old Subway sandwich club card shoved inside a sock drawer.

Yes, I know I haven’t been around in a while. I would have thought you would have been used to my absences by now, but nope. I’m pretty unreliable. Although, with the sunsetting of one of the only social media platforms that I use to advertise new blog posts and writings, that may change.

The search for another social media home has become dismal. Sure, there are plenty of options out there, but none of them feel like they will ever measure up and most of them are subscription based. Add to that, a sense of nihilism creeping in every time I consider jumping to MeWe or Diaspora. I mean, I had very limited interaction with anyone on Google+, and it was kind of the same story back when I was stupid enough to have a Facebook account. I was on my own little island trying to make sense of things while I tried to persuade people to read my stuff, which wasn’t that successful. I don’t think I have it in me to uproot and start from scratch for an even more anemic experience. It just makes sense to make this blog my home for the time being. If I’m going to have to spend money to get my work out there, I might as well buy my own domain.

Anyway, enough of that.

I hate the feeling that I’m always starting from scratch. Like I haven’t reached the first step yet, but I am so far away from starting. Like I’m always caught in that awkward place between zero and one. I’ve been a perpetual beginner for years, and now I’m tired of the hamster wheel.

This year, I will be writing more. I will be posting more. I have a couple of short stories I want to get out into the open. I’ve been getting a little flabby in the blogging and article posting, so it’s time to throw on the sweats and get busy.

Also, while I’m thinking about it, I received a writing prompt book for Christmas this year. Every page has a plot point, a handful of required words to use and enough blank space to put in a paragraph or two. Since my cursive leaves something to be desired, maybe enough room for a sentence? Anyway, I think I’ll be going a little long on a few of these, so I’ll be posting things inspired from that as well.

So, that’s it. Happy New Year. More stuff coming soon.

5 Seconds: A Brief History and Abrupt Demise of Google+

5 Seconds: A Brief History and Abrupt Demise of Google+

Since Facebook was released to the public back in 2006, it had been a time-honored tradition to complain at length to any update or questionable algorithm shift they felt necessary to throw in your face. It was almost seasonal. Like Christmas. The wailing and gnashing of teeth, the destruction of keyboards and statements of, “I’m gonna leave this stupid site if they don’t put it back the way it was,” were on par with those quintessential, inescapable, mind-numbing carols that invaded every single moment of your life for weeks.

We’ve all been there, right? You have just appointed your page to just how you like it, and then suddenly Facebook barges into your perfectly feathered nest, sets it on fire, pisses all over it and tells you to get used to it. You complain. You join groups. You rage rage rage hard, and then eventually you forget about it and get used to how things are… until they change it again.

I’ll admit, I was a part of the chorus of squeaky wheels. Until I was reminded, over and over again that what I have on this site is not mine. I have lost sight of the bigger picture; If I wasn’t selling a product on Facebook, I was the product.

It was always sobering to be reminded of just exactly what we were all doing on this site. If I could divorce myself long enough from being butthurt about their seemingly personal infringement, I could see the reasoning behind it. I understood that something as humongous as Facebook would need to stay afloat somehow, and the best way of doing it for them would be to distract their millions and millions of users with shiny objects jangled in our faces like a ring of keys in order to generate ad revenue by “borrowing” your personal information. On a certain level, I understood. It didn’t mean I had to like it.

Facebook and I parted ways sometime around 2011 when a huge change landed with an even huger thud on their site leaving many of us to question why they are there and what they were doing. Before this time, you could enjoy updates from your friends and see what was happening in your particular little bubble. Then all of a sudden, Facebook, in their infinite wisdom, started stuffing your feed with news articles that Facebook felt was relevant to you, because algorithm. While at the same time all your friends’ activity took a back seat.

There was also the change where you could see what other things your friends were liking and what other conversations they were having, which I kind of felt left the door open for future stalking and harassment.

Facebook, the comfortable dorm room which we all felt safe in had turned into something unrecognizable and potentially dangerous. The random threats of closing a page were more real this time. Before, nobody, especially Facebook, regarded these threats as anything credible because there wasn’t anywhere else to go to. At least, no place that was as user-friendly.

Then, Google+ appeared.

Then shit just got real.

Up until this time, Google had only been dipping their toes in the social stream. Years before launch, they released testers like Google Buzz, Orkut, and FriendConnect. All had a modest following and showed potential for something greater, at least by those who used them, until Google finally wrangled them together to make Google+; A social network specifically designed to be everything Facebook wasn’t. Before its release, it was given the name of “Facebook Killer”.

That first month wonderful. Everything was bright and shiny, and there was nary a troll or an obnoxious ad to be seen anywhere. It was a calm vista where people could converse without yelling at each other and the exchange of ideas was done in a much more respectful manner.

Sure, there was that whole “Aliases and nicknames are verboten so use your real name or get kicked out” thing, but LOOK! CIRCLES! We got CIRCLES! You can stuff all your friends in CIRCLES! Pay no attention that your freedom of choice is a currency we don’t take around here. The Circles are your friend.


It didn’t take long before this exotic haven was beginning to look more like a cheap resort. In 2012, if you didn’t have a Gmail account, something that required very little effort to do, you were forced to sign up for a G+ account at the same time. A move which failed to win over many new subscribers.

The same thing happened in 2013. Hey! Want to comment on or share a YouTube video? Something you could do already because you had your own YouTube account? Nope. Now you had to have a Google+ account in order to continue doing something that you’ve been doing for years. And your YouTube handle couldn’t be a clever nickname or established brand, you had to use your real name or else no more engaging. It didn’t go over too well.

No account, no engaging. The move was unannounced and unappreciated. Not only did this incur a backlash by YouTubers who were busy gaining their own following, but it also affected a lot of G+ users as well. Most saw it as absurd and authoritarian, a move that was reason enough to get rid of their freshly minted accounts completely and seek greener pastures. It was a mistake that Google stuck to its guns on until they backtracked in 2015 when G+ accounts were no longer mandatory to comment and share. But the damage was already done.

The whole YouTube debacle was still a fresh wound in the following year when in April, the founding father of Google+, Vic Gundotra, announced that he was stepping down from his position. The news didn’t seem to send anyone into too much of a tailspin. It was a quiet decision that was made, perhaps, to not cause too many ripples that could result in negative side effects(?) Not that it made too much of a difference anyway. After his departure, several tech journalists mused that if G+ wasn’t a ghost town already, it was certainly on its way to becoming one soon. Google+ was now left in the hands of people who didn’t know what to do with it.

The next couple of years lacked any real signs of improvement. Google Photos and Google Hangouts, applications spawned from G+, became their own entity in 2015. Android and Play Store freed themselves of the yoke of mandatory affiliation in 2016. 2017 saw a new layout and a retooling of the “+1” button, but by the time this happened, the end was already inevitable. Most of the users who were there from the beginning had jumped ship. Spam had overrun many user-created Communities long since abandoned. The network had become emaciated of users and content. Things couldn’t seem to get much worse.

…then 2018 happened.

Then shit just got real.

As early as 2014, British political consulting firm, Cambridge Analytica, had been surreptitiously gathering personal information from Facebook users. Specifically, White Americans who vote Republican. Their goal was to garner as much information as they can while at the same time, thanks to algorithms, abscond with as much information they had on their friends and family.

Was this legal? Oh, heavens no. But how else are you going to achieve global domination when your Chosen One is a narcissistic, bigoted, sexually assaulting racist who’s had a history of failing at every business venture he starts? Well, when you have the interest in a few Russian oil magnates who have endless supplies of cash and a vested interest in toppling Western interests all over the globe, you tend not to worry about the little things like “campaign finance violations”.

It started as an innocuous test or quiz like so many others to flood a Facebook feed, but unlike the “We Can Determine Your Personality Based On What Kind Of Pizza You Like” Buzzfeed fodder that we’ve all blown a few minutes on, this quiz had the extra added benefit of being an “actual” psychology test made by “actual” psychologists. It also had the extra added benefit of paying you for taking it.

Three hundred thousand Facebook users took the plunge. Without their knowledge, Cambridge Analytica was able to farm the personal information of not only the paid subjects but also their friends, followers, and family members. Each one gathered up like apples from the orchard, then sold to the highest bidder.

When this scandal was first released it was downplayed. The New York Times initially reported the number affected was somewhere in the neighborhood of 50 million users, but after further investigation and a whistleblower coming forward earlier this year, the number was then revised to closer to 87 million users.

The damage was done. Donald Trump was elected despite losing the popular vote thanks to some good old Russian hacking, and the hijacked personal information of a few million Facebook users.

The backlash was immediate. #DeleteFacebook trended for days on Twitter. An unavoidable mass exodus followed as Mark Zuckerberg was hauled up before a Congressional Committee, grilled like a salmon, and then made to make amends with his millions of users. Consumer confidence had reached a new low with Facebook by April 2018.

“But, hey!” I hear you ask. “What’s this got to do with Google+?”

Not a lot, I’m afraid.

Facebook, regardless of the negative backlash, the exodus of many accounts, and the liability it has caused many to utilize it is still the King of all social media. Its user base is still firmly in the hundreds of millions.

On the other hand, Google+, whose user base had been diminishing steadily thanks mostly to one unnecessarily egregious misstep after another, had–shall we say–some soul searching to do.

Now, stick with me. This is where things get a little squiffy.

Earlier this month, it was announced by Google that as of August 2019, Google+ will be closing down. The announcement comes on the heels of a Wall Street Journal expose of a bug found in the security features of the website. Something which Google was allegedly unaware of and unprepared for.

Officially, Google launched “Project Strobe” earlier this year. It’s essentially an internal audit of all the Google apps and it’s relation to Android devices specifically. What it had found was a string of code that would facilitate the access of private information to some half a million users. It was a flaw. A bug. Something that could be completely catastrophic had it been allowed to prosper.

Fortunately, it had been caught in time, and maybe because they didn’t notice the soaped up, screaming baby when they threw out the bathwater, because after they allegedly fixed the problem, Google had decided to scrap the consumer version of this platform and offer no alternatives to migrate to, or Mea Culpas or reassurances to make their existing service better.

We’re done.
Google+ is finito.
You have less than a year. Pack yer shit and get out.
End of story.

It’s kinda like when you find a spider in your bathroom and the only way to take care of it is to burn your house down.

It’s been a few weeks since the news broke, and personally, something hasn’t sat right with me about getting kicked out of my online home. Google is a juggernaut. It always has been. It has infiltrated our lives and become indispensable. We no longer research things, we ‘Google’ them on our smart devices made by Google. There is a certain air of dependability and sophistication when your email address ends with Hardly a day goes by when someone in my family shouts out, “Okay, Google…” into their phones when they have a nagging question rolling around in their heads. Google is omnipresent. Google is everything.

I’m just trying to figure out why they folded so easily when something as fixable as a bug in a line of code could have easily been… well… fixed. Especially when it comes to their once beloved “Facebook Killer”.

Who knows? Maybe it wasn’t as fixable as it seemed? Maybe it was some nasty bug like a code-gobbling Trojan Horse or some new strain of Stuxnet that had been tinkered on for years and released to the American Midwest. Ya know… for kicks!

Actually, blaming the bug for the closure was the reason given on their company blog. A nicely wrapped up package offered to the public without too much explanation. What they left out, and the thing that WSJ picked up on, was this “newly discovered” bug had been operational for about three years. Three years of using a platform that could have potentially made off with a gold mine of personal information. Three years of blithely communicating privately with only a select few people. Three years of knowing you had this thing, and not letting your customers know about it.

Fortunately, this bug that was infecting Google+ was never utilized. Whether it was because no one noticed. Or perhaps they did, but the bigger prizes were over in Facebook Land. No one could say for sure. This “newly discovered” bug had the potential to wreak havoc in the hands of some really bad actors, but it never happened. According to the audit, no evidence was found that any information was stolen. None. In three years.

Three years they had this flaw in their architecture and they didn’t tell a soul. Project Strobe was conducted earlier this year, and the findings came soon after. Mark Zuckerberg was also brought up before Congress around the same time this happened. Google’s executives could have come forward, but instead thought better to wait it out until the whole Facebook/Cambridge Analytica clusterfuck trudged its way to the back pages.

As the New York Times reported earlier this month…

“…The disclosure made on Monday could receive additional scrutiny because of a memo to senior executives reportedly prepared by Google’s policy and legal teams that warned of embarrassment for the company — similar to what happened to Facebook this year — if it went public with the vulnerability.
The memo, according to The Wall Street Journal, warned that disclosing the problem would invite regulatory scrutiny and that Sundar Pichai, Google’s chief executive, would most likely be called to testify in front of Congress…”
Daisuke Wakabayashi (NYT 10/8/2018)

Embarrassment. They were risking embarrassment by disclosing it. And now, as a direct result of not doing anything, they risk facing the same fate they were trying to avoid. To avoid getting egg on their face, they now run the risk of countless lawsuits, a long and uncomfortable dressing down from Congress, and a possible loss in revenue as consumer confidence takes a nosedive.

As a footnote, while the Google blog post regarding the shuddering of Google+ states officially that there was a security problem to blame, in the same breath, at the same time, Google finally admitted that Google+ was no longer a social network or even a “social layer”. It was Zombieville. A ghost town. Current numbers indicate that Facebook, in spite of everything, currently has more than 2 billion users while g+ is hovering in the 6 to 7 million active user range. Most of them, Google states, only have an engagement rate of about 5 seconds.

Hard to believe, right? Dismal active user counts who only stay long enough to have their parking validated? How could that be? Could it have something to do with the forced integration with other applications on their platform? The bullying tactics? The constant rearranging of the interface and the hobbling of perhaps their biggest saving grace they had, the “+1” button? Maybe if they didn’t do any of this, maybe if they went in a better direction, maybe if they listened to their users, their engagement rate might last a little longer?

Could it be that the reason for such low user engagement was the platform being at odds with their customers from the beginning and not some phantom, nameless bug which may or may not have been hanging out and minding its own business for years? Could it be that this embarrassment they were trying to avoid was completely brought upon by themselves? Maybe?

But, who cares? Nobody is going to miss a ghost town unless there was some way someone could profit off of it.

Google+ has been my social home for years. For the most part, it’s relatively free of trolls and the absence of obtrusive advertising is refreshing. The distaste I’ve cultivated over the years about going back to Facebook for the sole purpose of interacting with other people and perhaps cultivating a following has only soured more.

I have grown bitter and curmudgeonly. I find that these days of spending an inordinate amount of time on Twitter to see how close we are to the end of the world that I’m really good at reacting rather than interacting. I have become fluent in Snark, Sarcasm, and Hyperbole. The whole point, or at least the original reason that I got on social media to begin with, has become stained with troll vomit. I no longer feel like being social.

But that’s not possible.

It has been driven into my head that you need Facebook or Twitter to survive as an author. While that might be technically true, in reality, it’s more of a liability. Reaching a wider audience using Facebook isn’t guaranteed, even when you do pay to advertise. Tweeting about your published works only falls on deaf ears. I could be more heartbroken that I will no longer have a centralized social platform with which I could link all my other accounts to, I don’t think it will make too much of a difference. I don’t think there will be too much of an impact if I just not bother at all.

But I need all the help I can get.

Google+ Mass Migration will probably be the last Community I follow. It’s a gathering of G+ users who are sharing information and stories about where to plant our roots. So far, the leading contenders are MeWe, Minds, and Pluspora (an offshoot of Diaspora). All of these sites have their benefits, but they all seem to be built on very shaky ground and no one is counting on any of them being around for long. I’m leaning more towards Friendica, but I can’t help but think that setting up shop there is more trouble than it’s worth. Honestly, I really don’t think a change of venue translates into more followers. Not for me. Not for what I’m doing. Perhaps it’s best to make the most of what I have.

Now that I’m thinking about it, maybe G+ shutting down is a good thing. It will be one less distraction and it will force me to make better use of my time. This blog will be my home for the foreseeable future. I’ll make the occasional appearance on Medium, participate in some quick fiction over on Tumblr, continue doling out the snark on Twitter, and advertise new projects on Instagram and Pinterest.

Maybe we’re all looking at the demise of social networking happening in real time. I’d like to think that we’ve all evolved beyond sharing cat videos and pictures of our lunch. Personally, I don’t mind the occasional distraction. But the problem with that is that I take it for granted that it’s always there. Just fire up the computer and get lost for hours in other people’s work rather than focusing on my own. Maybe it’s a good thing G+ is going the way of the dodo. Maybe Facebook will have their Friendster moment one day and eventually fade into obscurity. Maybe we’ll all go back to days of UserNet and communicate using pure text without graphics or emojis.

Maybe then our attention span will last longer than 5 seconds.

Here’s to hoping.

©2018 AA Payson

Mage of the Blue Light

Mage of the Blue Light

It’s Free Flash Fiction time again, you lucky, lucky people!

It’s the latest distraction I gave to myself over the weekend to get my head back into things. It’s based on Daniel Pilla’s The Journey of the Wandering Mage, courtesy of Charlie Hoover and his Geekscape page. Please check them both out, but I suggest pulling up Daniel’s work in a separate window as you read to get the full effect. And while you’re on his page, be sure to show him some love. Encourage the arts. Encourage creativity.


Paal would rather be elsewhere right now. He would rather face the daily consternation from his wife about how much of a charlatan he is, and how her father was right in saying she should marry someone who was rich. He would rather be surrounded by squealing, rosy-cheeked, snot-nosed children as he would astound and amaze them with basic magic for a few coins a day in the village square. He would rather be surrounded by the safe and familiar walls of his Kingdom, or at the very least, surrounded by the prison walls of which he’s more accustomed to. Literally anywhere else would be preferable to be standing before the Kingdom of Krauthuga, whose very walls seemed to be carved from nightmares as it reflects and refracts the light of the rising Witch’s Moon.

Murrir stood resolutely by Paal’s side. Claws extend and contract methodically around the leather woven handle of a battle axe that has been wielded by his father many times in battle. A golden eye scans the stone walls, ramparts and battlements for the slightest weakness to exploit. The other eye rests cold and dead behind a crude and tiny eyepatch. Murrir has been aching for this day. Before the blood red moon sets, he will finally win his freedom for his family and for the rest of his Feliformian brethren.

The wind changes direction. Murrir points his nose to the sky, his whiskers follow suit. His tail twitches as his ears spin to capture the smaller details of the night’s landscape.

“What do you smell?” Paal was interested in what caught his diminutive companion’s interest.

“Shhh,” Murrir extended a paw. “Voices, Mage. Our presence hasn’t gone unnoticed.”

“You’ve got to be kidding me,” Paal sqwaked as he tried to count the number of torches and angry howls echoing across the valley. ” They know we’re here?”

“Hmm? Oh. No, not them. The Fae Folk. They know of our quest. They…” his feline ears flatten closer to the ground. “They warn us that the horde will attack when the moon is high… and…”

“We know this already, can they point us in the direction of a way in? I guess going through the front door is out of the question. because that bridge seems to lead to nowhere.”

“Quiet, Mage!” Murrir growled as he struggled to translate the rest of the message. “There is a way. Under the wall. No one will be paying attention.”

“I can see that. The shouting is pretty articulate even all the way back here.” Paal is convinced he can smell the collective stench of their breath every time the black speech of the horde rises in a hellish chorus. Fires from a thousand torches and the clang of a thousand swords carry across the chasm. In a matter of hours, the countryside will be scorched by an evil that will bring about the end of all life.

“Well, this has been… an experience, my talking tabby friend. I think now would be a good time to start warning the nearest village that they’re about to be mowed down like a winter harvest.”

“No, Mage.” Murrir’s voice was as fragile as a bundle of dried reeds. “We stay. Rescue Kova. He protect my clan. Must keep Tabbi Clan safe. Must keep family safe. You help.”

Paal’s cheap boots have already started the retreat. “Yes, that’s all well and good. Family should come first, yes, but you see…”

“…I’m not…”
“You no help?”
“No, you see..”
“Why you no help?”

Paal’s reaction got the better of him. “I’m NOT…I’m not who you think I am.”

Murrir cast a skeptical gaze at his reluctant partner. “What you mean, Mage?”

“That’s just it. I am no mage. I am no wizard. I’m just a street performer who practices sleight of hand for cash, and not very well, I’m afraid.”

“That not true,” Murrir chuckled, playfully slapping Paal’s knee with the back of his paw. “You are The Great Palindrome! Weaver of Time and Space. Master of Dark Arts and Illusion. You very clever.”

“Ah, how wonderful. You’ve… you’ve memorized my intro. Look, nothing I say or do is real. It’s an act. It’s all make-believe. There’s no such thing as magic,” Murrir’s whiskers wilted as his words land like soft blows to his ears. “This jewelry I wear is fake. Nothing more than shards of glass and strands of copper. There are no magic properties to them. This cape is a piece of a tapestry I stole from a traveling minstrel show. Nothing there either.”

“What about your staff?”
“My what?”
“Your staff. Where did that come from?”

“This,” Paal had been walking with it for so long, he almost forgot that he’d been leaning on it for days. “This is just a prop. The crystal,” he pointed to the deep blue iridescent rock crowning his staff, “was payment for performing at a birthday celebration. Nobody seemed to think it valuable enough to trade, so I kept it. The staff itself is a tree branch that broke over a dog’s head. This dog wanted to kill me so I ran, I climbed the tallest tree I could find, I stepped on this branch and it snapped and fell right on top of him. Knocked him out cold. I supposed it’s been my good luck charm ever since. I don’t know, I think it adds to the whole ensemble, don’t you think?”

“So, you made that?”
“Yes, I did.”
“You are Mage.”
“I’m not a… right, why do you insist on thinking that I am some magical being that will aid you in your quest? I am a clown that occasionally gets incarcerated for practicing magic in public. Why you would trust me to help you with anything is beyond me. You should have let me rot in that cell.”

Murrir turned slowly to face him. “You can believe what you want. You can be a street performer if it will bring you comfort, or a thief if it will give you spirit. But only true Mages have the power and wisdom to forge their own magic staff. You may think it nothing more than a fancy thing, but this eye can see much. I can tell you real Mage.”

“How do you know that,” Paal said as his own disbelief paints his face.

“You told me there were Fae Folk nearby.”
“I did?”

“A few minutes ago. When we passed that tree.” It was information that was a just a bit too much for Paal to handle at this moment. Waiting for a tree to do something answers no questions. Murrir is getting anxious. The moon is rising, and they are running out of time. And so is Kova. “Here, I show you.”

Murrir turned to face the ancient tree growing precariously from the raised wall of Earth just behind them. He took a deep breath and mewled a soft song from his throat. It was an ancient tune sung in a Feline dialect. It was what Cat Folk mothers sang to their young to call them home.

It would seem that the tree was unimpressed with his vocal ability, but one by one, tiny winged, glowing creatures the size of moths would take flight and paint the night sky in a brilliant azure hue. Soon, a cloud as blue as a robin’s egg on a spring day and as dense as a murmuration of starlings encircled the tree and hovered over their heads in joyous flight.

“But, how did I tell you they were here? I don’t remember saying, ‘hey Mur, there are little flying faeries over in that tree.’ Unless I’m mistaken.” Paal stretched out a palm to invite a tiny faerie to land.

“You no say one word, no.” Murrir rasped through purring vocal chords. “Your staff did. The gem is what they call an Angel’s Tear. It is not valuable to eyes of man but is very precious to magic users. The crystal glows bright when magic is near.”

The crystal atop Paal’s staff radiated with the same blue faerie hue. He was too awestruck to notice. “I did this?”

“Yes,” replied Murrir bluntly. “Only true Mages can capture magic from nature. This is no accident. You real Mage now.”

“I’m sorry,” said Paal. “I just don’t believe it.”

Murrir slung his mighty axe over his shoulder. “Well, I believe in you, Palindrome The Great,” and with that the fearless Murrir, The Feliformian Warrior continued on the path. “Come. Great heroics will happen. Stories to tell your children.”

Paal waited for the last of the blue Fae Folk to return to the tree and for his stone to dim. The Witch’s Moon is higher, and the horrific chanting has yet to cease. He faces the dark castle and knows that there is a possibility that he will not make it out alive. But that doesn’t matter. He is no longer Palindrome, Prince of Parlor Tricks and Master of Illusion. He is now Paal, Mage, and Steward of the Blue Light. A deep breath and his cheap boots bring him a few steps closer to legend.

©2018 AAPayson


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Nothing To See Here: Notes on a Current Flash Fiction Project

Nothing To See Here: Notes on a Current Flash Fiction Project

The Call of the Wendig has sounded, and I must follow.

Here we all are, doing what needs to be done. Some of us in the midst of taking care of some business that has been needing to be taken care of for the longest time. Suddenly, and without warning, another school shooting happened on Valentines Day 2018. As of that day, the number of school shootings stands at 17. That’s two away from meeting the record from last year.

Chuck Wendig’s felt it. I’ve felt it. Anyone with a pulse and a conscious has felt it. It’s really hard to concentrate on doing anything creative when another unexplained act of extreme violence takes the lives of 17 children. It’s also rather chilling to think that in 2018 we have to use the modifier another when speaking about an atrocity like a school shooting. Like we regard it as a casual inconvenience along the lines of Five o’clock Traffic. Chuck has posed to us a challenge because there are things to be said. There are more voices that need to be heard. There needs to be a healing.

The theme of this latest challenge, to the surprise of absolutely no one, is “A World Without Guns”. I have spent a few days with this going through my head. I don’t think I’m any closer to visualizing it than I was the week before. Maybe this is why he made this challenge. Maybe this is why I need to accept it.


How Did We Get Here?


Okay, let’s clear the deck and start rearranging the furniture. There’s a lot of stuff to unpack, and it would help if I kinda knew where I was going. First of all, what type of world are we talking about? Second, there is a consideration of story length. Third, what is the theme? What is the message I’m trying to convey? Once again, I’m treating the smaller things with great importance. I’m doing it again because it matters. This one effing matters.

1. What Is The Shade of the Sky in Your World?

There is probably no way to get through this without blatantly committing the worst examples of Impostor Syndrome. I’ve researched all the examples I can think of, all the classics, all the new voices. Sooner or later, they all start sounding familiar. Bradbury leaps to mind. Vonnegut could probably do this in his sleep. For this, I think I want to go a little darker, and this means I have to ask myself one thing before I jump in with both feet: What Would Stephen King Do?

First, is this a world where guns have been outlawed? Well, if that’s the case, then it kinda isn’t necessarily a world without guns. If you ban something, anything, make that thing even more desirable because it is forbidden, they just don’t go away. They go underground. You would have the deepest and darkest of black markets where the world’s weapons would still be for sale, but only to the people who will go to great lengths to get there. I think this world would exist without stretching the imagination too much, and so I think I’ll stick in this one.

The other possibility is that they were never invented to begin with. We could live in a world where we never evolved passed the Dark Ages. This could mean literally, where dragons exist alongside WiFi technology. Or it could mean figuratively where our attitudes haven’t changed much since then; we still fear the unknown, witchcraft is very much a thing and surgery is still done with leeches. The former seems like a decent idea for another time, but the latter would be better suited, if only for a spice, an accent, for this scenario. It’s modern day, but people are still completely, willfully, dangerously ignorant. Flat Earthers and Anti-vaxxers come to mind.

2. That’s A Rather Personal Question, Isn’t It Sir?

How long is it? This is a very real issue that needs to be addressed. The challenge is for 1500 words, no one is going to fault for going a smidge over. The point is that it needs to stay short. The basis of writing Flash Fiction is to tell the story, sell the story, get to the point as quickly as possible in the space that you have. 1500 words is pretty much max capacity for Flash Fiction. The answer to this question should be exactly that, and it should be something that I stick to, but is there another way around it?

As of this point, I’m well over my daily session target of 500 words. Not bragging, but I knocked them out within an hour, and I’m not slowing down either. I feel this play needs to be performed in 4 acts. Realistically, I could smoosh everything down to Flash Fiction size, but my compulsion to go big is speaking louder, so how do I curb this?


  • Keep it short: Limit to one scene. Limit to two characters AT THE MOST. Begin close to the end.
  • Use one theme ONLY
  • Use one plotline ONLY
  • Keep it tight: save only the essential items of a back story. Get rid of fluff words, and unnecessary dialog.

Keep in mind that Flash Fiction is essential if for nothing else than practice. It’s something that tightens the spring for a longer story. That’s why this is a challenge, it’s going against everything that I want to do.

3. What Are You Saying?

The premise of this story is a world without guns. But does that necessarily correlate to a world without violence? From an outsider’s perspective, gun culture, particularly an American brand of gun culture, seems to be not too far away from a sort of Feudalism. Maybe the term “living in the dark ages” as a little more apropos these days. Within the framework of what I need to write, there is now a world completely devoid of guns, but evil still remains. Nobody shoots up a school anymore, but people still fear the unknown. People still segregate, diminish, hate. It’s the notion of accepting a Utopian society were it not for the people who still feel the “need for a gun”. They need some magic weapon to make all the things they consider bad to disappear. Take away the guns, but leave the fear and ignorance. What happens then?

I envision a world in the final throes of a democracy. A world where enlightenment has been going on for so long that it feels like it’s been tarnished by its own brilliance. How would this story be told? How would I write it? What am I trying to say? Throw all the guns away, if it will make you happy. You still won’t erase ignorance and greed. You still won’t save people from themselves. It is 2018, and we have learned and will learn, nothing.

But, let’s put all that on the back burner and focus on something in particular. I have yet to establish a theme, and instead, I’m focusing on a broader picture.

What am I trying to say?

Yes, violence is bad, life and liberty are good and all that is very useful if you’re teaching children. But this is a story, not a homily. Gun violence is out of control and they should all be banned and blahblahblah I’m putting myself to sleep on this.

No one will listen if I went down the Ban All Guns road. At the same time, the point wouldn’t be made if I glorified violence either. I’d be riding that fine line between preaching to the choir or screaming in the wind. Instead of coasting on a broad generalization and starting an argument that goes nowhere, maybe try and disassemble the whole morality of it, lay the whole issue out on a blanket as if I were taking apart a motor, and find one thing about this topic that is important enough to write a story about.

Let’s step away from the guns themselves for a moment. It’s window dressing and only represents a small part of the argument. Not to diminish their existence and the destruction that they bring, I get that part. What specifically about the gun culture that riles me? Is it the deaths? Sure. Is it that we are the only country in the “civilized” world that assassinates children on a regular basis without really doing anything about it? Absolutely. It’s all those things, but the biggest issue I have, the thing that makes my blood boil, has nothing to do with the actual weapons of war. It has to do with the hypocrisy around it.

A tragedy happens, and the normal thing to do, outside of the natural mourning period, would be to take steps to figure out what happened to make sure that it never happens again. Regulations are put in place. Media blitzes swamp the landscape. People talk about it. Seatbelts. Drunk driving. Smoking is bad for you. Speed limits. The ineffective “If You See Something, Say Something” campaign. All of these were the result of people taking action after a tragedy, and all of these are all commonplace now. We wear seat belts. Drunk driving is a no-no. Smoking is no longer socially acceptable.

Someone shoots up a school, which *winces* happens on a fairly regular basis these days, and the people, the people we count on, the people we elected to hear us and understand us and do something when our lives are in danger, are strangely quiet about it. In the case of the Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School students, they’ve been seeing something and saying something for a while now. In fact, they’ve been quite active on this. The tragedy here is that no one bothered to listen or take them seriously because… pfft… kids… amirite?

It’s not just the weapons themselves, it’s the ignorance and the arrogance and the hypocrisy and the twisted logic surrounding it that I find the most horrifying.

This is where my story lies. This is where I’ll start.


The Road to eBooking Part 1: Where To Begin?

The Road to eBooking Part 1: Where To Begin?

You know how it goes…

It’s late summer, and you’re holding court at some corporate Tiki Bar in the middle of the banker district. There’s a beautiful sunset overhead, but you ignore it because, at the moment, one hand is feverishly flipping through your news feed on your phone, while the other is wrapped around your third Suffering Bastard. Right now, all you can think about is where your next gig is coming from.

Your buddy’s Hawaiian shirt is so loud it could be heard over the soulless banter of the Mid-week Happy Hour crowd and whatever piped in audio sedative treacle they have playing at the time. It must be a Tuesday. His gait is wide as he clears a path back to your table. He removes his cheap, ill-fitting sunglasses from his pockmarked face, and he reveals a very serious expression. He orders a Red Stripe, turns to you and says, “That was the main office. They want to know if you can write a novel.”

“A novel?” You ask with heavy indignance, “Can’t those bastards find anything else to do in this godforsaken time? They had plenty of time to unleash this task last month. Novel. Pfft. They must be getting desperate.”

“I dunno. It could be important,” says your buddy as he gives the glass back to the waitress and takes a mighty swig from the tiny bottle. “As your attorney, I advise you to consider this option. Pack up the car, leave town for at least 48 hours. It could be just the thing you need to get out of this rut.”

“Those barking jackasses won’t get a word from me,” you say as you adjust your amber tinted aviators and turn your attention back to your Twitter feed. “Don’t they realize this country is going to hell in a handbasket? There are more important things out there than just casual reading, dammit!”

Next thing you know, you wake up in some horribly painted unfurnished apartment out by the railroad tracks on the edge of town. You are surrounded by stacks of notecards, a mountain of hastily written drafts that seem to be propping up a tower of pizza boxes, a minefield of empty coffee cups underfoot, and huge goddamn WiFi bill that your buddy stuck you with.

You squint at the Dollar Store Adorable Kitten calendar affixed crudely against the kitchen wall with duct tape. You notice it’s November. You notice this not because of the fluffy baby tabby kitteh posed perfectly on a pumpkin in pilgrim attire, you notice this because the name of the month circled and underlined repeatedly in red marker with an equally urgent treatment given to the date of the 28th.


You look over at your laptop and you notice a jibberish laden manuscript flickering on the screen with a bold heading that simply says Chapter 3. You panic. At least, you think about panicking if it weren’t for the dull nausea in your gut that you get from too much coffee and not enough food. It has garnered your full attention and is quickly amplifying the hell that you found yourself in.

Everywhere you look is chaos. Nothing is making sense. Seriously, where did this cat come from? Do I even own this much paper? These aren’t my pants. Did someone actually use a highlighter on my screen? You’d be more inclined to think that you’d been robbed, but nothing appears stolen. But then again, you don’t even know whose place this is.

You turn around and come face to face with a wall-sized cork board completely choked from corner to corner with more notecards, color-coded and frenzied. A few are stitched together in some random network of colored yarn and thumbtacks. Confusion fills your head because you can’t recall any conspiracy theories that you’re following at the moment. Then, it hits you. It’s NaNoWriMo, and you’re about to go down in flames.

I know, I know. We’ve all been there.

My experience wasn’t any different.

With a little restraint, I’ve managed to control the impulse to do something like this, and it has gone down a few notches since then.

Write Smaller, Not Harder

Before signing up, I honestly don’t think I had a cohesive idea for a novel at all. I had the beginnings of an idea. A spark. I had the willingness to elevate the way I use this craft, and the desire to see it through to the end, only to have the wind knocked out of my sails by the end of week two.

I was ill-equipped, and perhaps just a little full of myself. I ramble, in case you haven’t noticed. And as such, I thought I would be able to make it to the finish line. Most of my blog posts average around 2000 words so it should be no problem. True, there are times where it takes me a few days, sometimes longer to finish. I accept this because time and privacy are both luxuries I do not possess. These are the things that I would need in order crank out more, if not better and more consistent posts. These things would facilitate a decent showing at the end of November.

At least I’d get a t-shirt out of it.

These are also the things I will probably never get by being a stay-at-home dad. So, in order to reach a compromise, it made more sense to set my sites a bit lower and work smaller.

Writing prompts and Flash Fiction contests are great to make sure the imagination keeps flowing, but these days, I tend to gravitate more towards static art. Building a story around a painting just makes sense because…well… they are worth a thousand words, after all. So, why not figure out what they are and write them down? You know… for kicks!

At Home Among A Gaggle of Geeks

When you post a work of art on your social medias, you’ll get your usual, obligatory likes, and random one or two-word comments. You feel this fleeting moment of satisfaction where you think someone might have the same taste you do.

Post that same work onto a community space that is inhabited entirely by a nerd herd of people with similar likes, interests, and experiences, and you’re bound to get something a little more fleshed out.

Examples of this can be found on Tumblr, Medium, Facebook (I’m presuming) and in this case, Charlie Hoover’s Geekscape of the Day.  There is no contest he constructs. He offers no direction. One would think that he would posit a challenge at the very least, but he doesn’t. He simply posts a work of art that he likes, something that can easily fit with the community’s namesake, along with the name of the artist who made it and a link to where they originally posted it. That’s it.

To the average person, this is just another post on just another social site.

To a person who is predisposed to letting their mind wander, it’s like catnip.

Sooner or later, the word nerds from the nerd herd would gather and start clicking away at their keyboards like little nerdy word birds. What ultimately ends up happening isn’t a competition or even a round-robin type thing. It’s more like an unofficial open mic night at some bar that only the locals know about. One person would leave their related micro-fiction as a comment. Then another would leave their interpretation, then another, and so on.  This is what happens when you show something interesting to a group of smarter than average people who read a lot in their spare time. This is how I often thought an ideal social media interaction would take place.

This is also how I came to travel down the road to my first official publication. Fingers crossed.

I’m about 1200 words in, and I still haven’t provided anything actionable yet.

For some reason, I’m still thinking that the point of writing this post is to show what my thinking process was in writing a short story, or anything else for that matter. I’ve been fighting with this part for about a week now because there’s a big part of me who is convinced no one will care.

As I’ve stated before, do you really want advice from someone who isn’t a professional? Advice, good advice, should be dispensed by smarter people than me.

But then again, advice isn’t gospel.

The best I can do is impart a tiny bit of wisdom through experience and hope that it might be beneficial to someone.

Where To Start?

The painting that I based my current story on, is found here. Take a look. Take a good long look at it. Absorb it. Spend a few minutes with it, then get back to me.

Welcome back. Now, answer me this. What did you see? Who talked to you? What was said? What did you smell? This way of doing things accounts for the majority of my present and future drafts. I’m not saying that it will work for you. It may, but it may not. Looking at the source material is the first step. This is what I normally do next.

1.) Remember The Basic Rule.

“Every play has to have a beginning, middle and an end. Jean-Luc Godard said, ‘Not necessarily in that order.’ And that’s why French movies are so effing boring.”
-David Mamet

I will acknowledge that liberties are ours for the taking. We as writers, professional and amateur, will always have the freedom to do what we want with our own work.

Mix it up ‘Memento’ style?
Go ahead with your bad self!

Sticking with the ‘Once Upon a Time’ to ‘Happily Ever After’ formula?
Well, look at YOU in your Sunday Best!

Whatever route you follow, always remember that every story will have a beginning, a middle, and an end. Absorb the source material. Think about a beginning, you don’t have to get into too much detail. Then a middle; will there be conflict? What will that conflict look like? Then the end; what would be the result?

If you can fill in these blanks, then you’re well on your way.

2.) Keep Asking Questions.

Imagine you aren’t a writer chained to your desk to finish your latest work of fiction. Imagine you’re a journalist who just arrived on the scene of a botched robbery. Your job is to get all the important details out of the way first. The rest will take care of itself.

  • Who was involved? Who was the victim? Was there a perpetrator?
  • What happened? What is the evidence? What are the facts?
  • Where did it happen? Home or business? City or suburbs?
  • Why did it happen? What was the motivation? Who stands to benefit?
  • How did it happen? What was used? Where was it acquired?

The principle is the same regardless if you’re creating worlds for your next novel, or writing a fully detailed article for the Washington Post. Once you get all the important information down, ask yourself, “Is this all to the story, or is there something that I missed?”

3.) Stay Curious.

Right around this time, Imposter Syndrome kicks in, and I go back over everything to see if it’s slightly original, or just another worn out trope.

If it starts ringing familiar, then I try to steer the narrative into a new direction. If it doesn’t, well, it doesn’t make it any less challenging.

Can you work with it? Are you willing to work with it? Is it something you’re willing to put the hours into? If the answer to these is no, then it probably wasn’t meant to be, but that’s okay. There are plenty of other motes of inspiration out there waiting to fly into your nostril cavity at any time. All you have to do is to keep an open mind and stay curious.

It’s been over a week on this post. I’ve spent long enough away from my draft, and I should return with a fresh set of eyes. Revisions will be the house in which I will be moving into soon, but for now, something else has my full attention. Something awful.

In the course of writing this post, an American radicalized by a White Supremacist Terrorist Group walked into a Florida high school and murdered 17 children.

He walked in with an assault rifle. Passed metal detectors. Passed armed guards. 17 children, 3 adults, murdered. In school. On Valentine’s Day. It’s now two days later. No motive has been given.

I know it’s our job to stay on task and finish the article and stick to the program, but shit like this makes it hard to talk about anything else. Everything else seems small in comparison. I’m writing about some stupid book that I’m trying to publish. Meanwhile, 17 kids were slaughtered on Valentine’s Day. That’s 17 kids who will never have the opportunity to make the world a better place. 17 voices silenced. Hundreds in mourning. Thousands enraged. A country fed up.

Right now, there isn’t anything else.

Right now, there are more important things that need discussion.


Road to My First eBook (an introduction)

Road to My First eBook (an introduction)

I am finished.

After years of psyching myself up while at the same time learning to let go of doubt and fear and perfection, I fulfilled a promise made to myself from years ago. I finally finished something.

It’s taken me 5 months, and the length of it should reflect the time invested into it. But, no. Although, I’m not entirely sure that taking a long time on a project is a bad thing. Five months to write something should mean, according to most bloggers, that I have spawned a full length, 180,000 word, child booster seat usable, make War & Peace look like a diner menu type novel. Instead, it’s pocket-sized, and I’m okay with that.

“So, whatchoo been doin’, brah?”
Oh, I just completed a draft for a short story.
“Ah, that’s pretty righteous, Mr. Edgar Allen Bro. How long it take? A week or two?”
It took me five months.
“Oh…okay. Well, hey gotta go do my pecs. Catch ya later, Brotato Chip.”

For those of you who were wondering, yes. I did just equate people who win at NaNoWriMo every year to gym bros. And before you start crying foul about it, it’s a totally fair analogy, because in both scenarios, I think I’m making great progress at what I’m doing, until I see how far along other people are, then I just want to go home and bury myself in a pint of Ben & Jerry’s.

I’ve finished. And yes it has taken me an especially long time to do so, but I don’t care. One of these days, I’ll learn to set personal benchmarks and deadlines, but for now, I’m enjoying this achievement. This is big for me, realistically and spiritually. The race ended a long time ago, and everyone went home, but I’m crossing that finish line covered in sweat and puke stains come hell or high water.

The magic number was 10,000 words. That’s all. Just get to that level.

Hit 10,000 words so it could be trimmed back to 7,000 so it could be easily be digested in one sitting, and if I’m lucky, sold into anthologies and stuff. That was the intent.

September 2017. The Beginning.


I have this terrible habit of not finishing things. Call it Fear of Failure. Call it the pitfalls of being a Perfectionist. Say that I’m a chronic procrastinator. Throw all those things into a word salad, serve it with a steak, and I’d give my compliments to the chef. There is always that other thing. That story I need to at least get an opening scene happening for so I don’t forget why I wanted to pursue it to begin with. For me, this has meant a folder full of barely started manuscripts that are still miles away from their resolution.

This has been my go-to destructive habit for a bit too long, and so in September of last year, I decided to put my foot down, draw a line in the sand, find a hill to die on and… um… I dunno… choke a…yak with a… uh… banana-nut muffin? Anyway, I decided to make it a priority to find one last project and stick with it until completion.

Okay, yeah. Sure. I slipped a little Flash Fiction somewhere in there, so what? It wasn’t a complete distraction. If anything, it helped.


So, five months later, I have finished my short story. Well, technically my first draft, but I still finished it. My goal was for 10,000 words. It ended up being just south of 12,000. I added a little wiggle room on purpose to see what could be saved and what couldn’t.

What I have just completed is the first step into uncharted territory. I have read several blogs on what I should be doing as far as prepping for publication, and I will be taking them all into consideration. But, as with most advice I seek out, I’ll have to keep in mind that it’s all subjective and what works for one person may not work for me. My experience won’t exactly reflect their experience because YMMV.

My original intent for this post was to make a Top 5 list for Things You Need to do After Completing Your First Draft…ugh… Seriously, would you follow the advice of some unpublished noob? Of course not. I wouldn’t.

I’m just feeling my way around at the moment. I don’t know what I’m doing. I’ll admit it. I am going to make mistakes, and more importantly, I am going to own my mistakes. I’m not at that point where I can properly dispense wisdom, and something tells me that when I do, I probably won’t be as forthcoming then either. So, no advice from me. I promise. However, the SEO gods have to be appeased, and so I must document something on this here bloggeroonski in regards to my current endeavor.

I could do research on what would be the next steps to publish and give you some worn out list that has been offered over and over again by a dozen different authors. But from me, it would just sound ridiculous. I mean, more than it does now. It wouldn’t make much sense. What would make sense, I think, would be to blog about the current state of the project as I’m going through it. That way, it will keep me honest and motivated into seeing this through. Plus, it’s always satisfying to read an origin story. Maybe I’ll offer sneak previews and such here and there. You know, like what a real blogger does.

Consider this an introduction. The next few steps should be coming relatively quickly because I’m practically there.

I am going to publish my first work. This is new to me, and it’s very exciting. I could fall flat on my face, I could turn out okay. Who knows?

Stay tuned…